I constantly tell myself this. I never know when or how but I know they will always improve if I’m having a terrible day. Last night I sat sobbing on my bathroom floor and I wanted to die. I wanted to commit suicide. I sat there and had to remind myself how selfish suicide is and how I hated my dad for doing that to me and my mom and how I couldn’t do that to my mom. It’s so inconsiderate. But these words changed my life, honestly. If you never had a bad day you would never appreciate a good day. Things always get better. When I was sobbing last night it showed me who cares about me and who wants me to be happy when I’m like that. Today was a great day, things do get better. You just have to appreciate the little things in life. The weird, quirky, silly little things are the best things in life. I think Dan made me realize this. He is weird, silly, quirky, funny, attractive and intelligent. I don’t have one bad thing to say about him. Right now in my mind he is just perfect and it’s the little things like that, that make me appreciate the life I have. If I had killed myself I would’ve spent one less day swimming at sandy hook, one less day jamming with Bree, one less day seeing Erin, one less day talking to Dan and one less day being with my mom and Steve. I’m finally able to appreciate my life with all of its ups and downs.